Cash and Carry (12 of 28)

Do we do a full background check on them, the way we do our surrogates? We don't.
After 4 years of hoping for a child, the Relyeas' home is full of baby clothes.
This is the thing, one of the things I love doing most.
It was like I was just finding so many just darling outfits.
Ginger and Stephen tried surrogacy once before.
A year ago they met Maggie Anderson, a mother of three, who agreed to become pregnant for them.
I had chosen as a teenager to abort a couple of pregnancies, and I'd always been sitting with the feeling of guilt, that why didn't I take these pregnancies to term and to give those babies to a couple.

And I was never able to resolve that feeling of like I made the best choice that I could at that age, but thinking I could have done it differently, would I do it differently today.
And I thought this would be a way to kind of make amends, or make peace with myself around doing it.
Maggie conceived twin girls, they were born prematurely at 5 1/2 months.
It was just heartache, it was pain, it was disbelief, it was shock.
Just pretty unbelievable, and the babies didn't survive very long, maybe 10, 15 minutes a piece.
And when I see a set of twins, or I see a preemie, and I think back, you know, and the loss of those two little girls, and I mean it will forever change my life and who I am.
You said you were having still some sadness, where it would just kind of come up because of the six month anniversary.
I think there will always be a piece of me that knows them and loves them, even though they didn't live very long.